clo hates her country because it allowed her to make a miserable waste of her life.  Now it's almost over and all she can do is to dwell on how little she's done and how it wasn't her fault.  Isn't freedom terrible?
BTW, my sister dropped out of college and was headed the same direction.  When she was 40, divorced and raising a 6 year old by herself, she decided she'd had enough of that and went back to college.  It took her about 8 years, but she graduated with a degree in Power Engineering - which many will tell you is the HARDEST of all the major branches of engineering.
When clo was 40, she decided to keep drinking, marrying and divorcing since that's what she'd always done and was good at.
While I have many disagreements with my sister (she's a liberal), I respect what she did with her life.  clo?  Not so much.