SO I have been doing some soul searching thruout this time being on call 24/7 She cannot get on our bed so she lays on the wide sectional with one side made into a soft comfy sleeping area for her.
I have taken the "L" side of the sectional at night and am laying there trying to sleep and helping her with things thru the night.
Her sister came down from out of town and has been here the whole time helping as well.
I need her as my health continues to decline.. It's looking to me more and more likely that the stats on longevity after a diagnosis of Heart Failure appear to me to be pretty spot on..
I am also declining in strength and durability. Memory is not too good either anymore.
So I want to go get our funeral plots and arrangement taken care of before I need them.
This whole thing has gotten me to think a lot about life and reality..