What is actually so deliciously ironic about this statement of hers, ribit, is she is admitting that she felt shame for being at Princeton under false pretenses. But, she is still too clueless to even realize her own Freudian slip. She knew ... and still knows ... she wasn't qualified to be admitted to Princeton. She didn't earn her way there ... it was gifted to her solely because of the skin color she was born with. And, as an unexceptional student, she didn't use her opportunity at Princeton to better herself ... she simply fed her bitter resentment and continually searched for a free ride at other people's expense. She's a pathetic fraud ... she knows it ... and she knows everyone else knows it. The "shadow" is the shame of her very own personal failure that she desperately wants to hide.
The essential American soul is hard, isolate, stoic, and a killer. It has never yet melted. ~ D.H. Lawrence
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